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Thursday, September 6th, 2007
2:40 pm	The Greatest Week of my life..... Well this past weekend I went down to Illinois to visit the most amazing and wonderful woman in the entire world. This is what happened. Saturday night I drove down there. When I arrived I didn't really know what to expect. Tricia and I met up and we went to dinner at subway with her sister Lauren and one of her best friends Brittney. After that, we went up to Olivet campus to view Pirates of the Carribean 3. While watching the movie, I tried to make Tricia feel awkward when I caught her staring at me. It didn't work to well, but it worked a little. After the movie she took me over to the apartment that I was going to be staying the night. I felt like I didn't wanna seperate for the evening yet but I didn't really have a choice. As soon as I got into the apartment, the guys were all very cool and we watched some Sportscenter and I was getting mocked for my boys (The wolverines) losing to Appalachian St.. Anyways after getting made fun of, I asked if I could use a computer and a guy allowed me to so I could talk to Tricia online. We ended up talking till about 2 am then went to bed so we could get up in time for church. On Sunday we met for church and Tricia looked absolutely stunning. After a great service at church, Tricia and I went over to her friend Matt and Jacks house to pick them up for lunch. The four of us then went to TGI Fridays for lunch and followed that up by going to a park. The park we went to was absolutely beautiful. There were little cliffs with waterfalls in them. Also there were little crevassas and streams surounded by caves. Over all it was absolutley gorgeous there. After playing in the water and caves, we then went and laid down on a blanket on a huge hill. It was really hot out and extremely sunny. After about an hour of talking, we all decided to go get ice cream. Jack and Matt however decided that they wanted to go another way, thus leaving some alone time for Tricia and I. Here is where I became really nervous. It was tugging at me for quite a while at this point that I wanted to ask Tricia how she felt about us but when the time came I basically was scared to death. Anyways, we started walking back toward the car and I tried to ask Tricia some questions to break the silence. I could tell by the way her answers were that this was not what she wanted to talk about. She kept giving me really short, concise answers and kept looking up, down, and to the right. She was definately waiting for "the" question. When I finally got the nerve to ask her, Matt and Jack re-appeared at that exact instance. I couldn't even believe it and was laughing at myself thinking "God, that was not cool.... Just like in the movies". (Being sarcastic). After we got back to the car, we went and got ice cream and then proceeded to go back to Matt and Jack's house. When we got to Matt and Jack's house, we all sat in the living room and played a singing game. During the course of playting the game, I felt like I really wanted to hold Tricia's hand. As affraid as I was, I made my move. I eventually got her hand and she got up less then a moment after! After she got up, I started freaking out and didn't really know what to think. I tried to keep my cool and figure out if I made a huge mistake in misreading her signals or what. She then returned from another room after a few minutes and sat down next to me this time a little closer. After about a minute, our hands met again and this time she put her other hand on top of ours, so I knew it was safe. What a great feeling. After a little while, my friend Nandi called who also attends Olivet. She told me she was back on campus and asked where I was to see if we could meet up. I told her Tricia and I would meet her soon and got ready to leave Matt and Jack's place. When we got into the car, I knew my time was running out to say something to her. After we got down the road a little ways, I finally turned to her and said, "So I kind of have a question for you..." She immediately turned and yelled at me "IT'S ABOUT TIME!" and we both got a chuckle out of it. We then talked about how we liked each other and how things evolved comming from a solid friendship into a feeling of more than that. We hoped for a relationship. After discussing it some, I asked her if she was willing to give up our summer next year together so we can persue a relationship and she said absolutely it was worth it. So we weighted that into the equation and decided that we would pray about it and make sure thats what God wanted us to do. I already knew what I wanted and had a little time to think about it. After I said good bye to Tricia, I then started driving home. The whole ride seemed like 30 minutes because I was finally feeling happy in life. For the first time ever I felt like I had something special beginning. Now it was up to her. On Monday we talked on aim in the evening. I was very impatient and asked her as politely as I could if God had talked to her yet. That opened up the gate and we had a really good conversation about us. The night ended with her giving me permisison to ask her out. There was however, one condition for me in order to ask her out. One of her friends told Tricia I could ask her out only if I did it in a creative way. So after hearing this, my mind went into overdrive to try and figure something out. I got a great idea right away and the next day I implemented it. I ended up calling Tricia's friend Brittney and asked for a favor. When she heard my idea, she was delighted to help me out. What I had her do was go out and buy some rose pedals, a card, and a rose. She then laid out the pedals as a trail leading around her apartment that Tricia would follow that would eventually lead to the card and rose. The plan worked perfectly. I was so anxious that day, I was pacing uncontrollably waiting for Tricia to call. She finally did with excitement in her voice and an abundance of joy came all over me. She was so excited almost about ready to cry and all she could mutter was yes. That was the best moment of my life up to that point. I could now call her mine and to this day, she is the greatest blessing in my life. I have waited for so long for the right one. God has given me many struggles and has really tested me in the past. I can say with great joy that I now see why he made me wait for the perfect one. I am the happiest I have ever been and when I look at Tricia and I, I see other relationships that have worked out in the long run. I'm hoping that this is the beginning of something very special and I know my heart belongs to her. She has made me the happiest man on this earth and I am truly blessed by her being in my life. She's the greatest and I want the whole world to know that. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
6:14 pm	Oh what a day Well, today has been interesting. Recently I've run into some health problems. Just yesterday I was in the Emergency room for a while with big time stomach pains. But I guess thats life. I hope everythings goin good.... It's great though that the Tigers are in the World Series. My gosh. Who woulda thunk. I cant wait for the games to begin. This is an unbelievable season. I am typing this while watching the news. And yes, they are talking about the Tigers. Well now they are talking about the weather. Anywho, hope all is goin well to whoever reads this. Love you all. Bye everyone. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
12:25 am	My absolute Favorite song right now! Ehh its my life. This song reflects my life right now. BLAH! Someday I wont feel bad when I hear this song but actually smile knowing I got passed this part in my life. Till then I'll keep waiting. God always has a plan. Just waiting is the part that sucks. Specially when your friends get tired about hearing bout it. Owell, enough of the delay.... Here's the Lyrics! Hope none of you can relate! Artist: Simple Plan Lyrics Song: Anything Lyrics Another day is going by I'm thinking about you all the time But you're out there And I'm here waiting And I wrote this letter in my head Because so many things were left unsaid But now you're gone And I can't think straight This could be the one last chance To make you understand I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Because somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Because I know I won't forget you Together we broke all the rules Dreaming of dropping out of school And leave this place And never come back So now maybe after all these years If you miss me have no fear I'll be here I'll be waiting This could be the one last chance to make you understand And I just can't let you leave me once again I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Because somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Because I know I won't forget you I close my eyes And all I see is you I close my eyes I try to sleep I can't forget you Nanana (...) And I'd do anything for you Nanana (...) I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Because somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Because I know I won't forget you I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything There's nothing I won't do I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything Because I know I won't forget you Yep, my life in a nutshell...... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:23 am	More Songs! Another song! Artist: Simple Plan Lyrics Song: I'm Just A Kid Lyrics I woke up it was 7 I waited til 11 Just to figure out that no one would call I think I've got alot of friends But I don't hear from them What's another night all alone When you're spending every day on your own And here it goes I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me And maybe when the night is dead I'll crawl into my bed staring at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last time I had a good time Everyone's got somewhere to go & they're gonna leave me here on my own And here it goes I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me What the fuck is wrong with me Don't fit in with anybody How did this happen to me? Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep And every night is the worst night ever I'm just a kid I'm just a kid I'm just a kid I'm just a kid I'm just a kid I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight I'm all alone tonight Nobody cares tonight Cuz I'm just a kid tonight (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 20th, 2005
11:25 pm	Few Songs in my Life Been a while so I thought I'd just update it. Nothing new here really, just been working a lot. I expect to be working a lot more in the next few weeks. Things are starting to pick up an so thats really cool. I recently applied for Grand Valley University. So I'm really excited about that. If I dont get into that then I'm really seriously considering moving back to Alaska for a while. How that will work out or what I'll be doing up there, I am not quite sure yet. So keep in touch. Anyways here are a few songs that I really like right now for some reason. Hope you like them too! "Roll to Me" Look around your world pretty baby Is it everything you hoped it’d be The wrong guy, the wrong situation The right time to roll to me Look into your heart pretty baby, Is it aching with some nameless need. Is there something wrong and you can’t put your finger on it Right then, roll to me And I don’t think I have ever seen a soul so in despair So if you want to talk the night through Guess who will be there? So don’t try to deny it pretty baby, You’ve been down so long you can hardly see When the engine’s stalled and it won’t stop raining It’s the right time to roll to me Look around your world pretty baby Is it everything you hoped it’d be The wrong guy, the wrong situation The right time to roll to me "You and Me" what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you all of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping inwards you got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you there's something about you now I can't quite figure out everything she does is beautiful everything she does is right you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive "Bless The Broken Road" I set out on a narrow way many years ago Hoping I would find true love along the broken road But I got lost a time or two Wiped my brow and kept pushing through I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you Every long lost dream led me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you I think about the years I spent just passing through I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you But you just smile and take my hand You've been there you understand It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true Every long lost dream led me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you Now I'm just rolling home Into my lover's arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 26th, 2005
4:02 am	It's 3 am and I cant sleep again! Well its around 3 am and again I can’t sleep. I guess this is starting to be a regular occurrence with me. Not being able to sleep because of too much stuff on the mind. I went to go see the movie wedding crashers the other day with my sister. This movie is pretty much my life. (Almost). Owen Wilson finds this girl who he thinks is the girl of his dreams. He then finds out that she dating another guy. So through the whole movie he tries to show this girl that she is the only girl in the world that means something to him and that he is actually the right guy for her. He does everything he can just to get her to realize how much he truly likes her. Through the time they spend together it’s obvious that they match each other so well. Eventually, she finally realizes how much more she actually likes Wilson than her current boyfriend that she’s had for a long time. And in the end when she finally goes out with Wilson, she seems happier than when she was with her first boyfriend. I love how the story ends. Does it always happen this way? I don’t know bout that one but I’m sure hoping so. God is so cool at answering prayers even when you least suspect it…. So be on the lookout. He can even answer prayers in a movie :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 25th, 2005
3:35 pm	Quote Was lookin around the braves forum an I came across this quote. It made me encouraged bout my current lifestyle. "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from swinging." Babe Ruth New York Yankees OF If Babe said that, you gotta believe him. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
1:05 am	Email I recieved I thought I'd share..... Note: Please excuse the swearing..... I'm working on it and this is a good story... Two things Navy SEALS are always taught: Keep your priorities in order Know when to act without hesitation A college professor, an avowed atheist and active in the ACLU, was teaching his class. He shocked several of his students when he flatly stated that once and for all he was going to prove there was no God. Addressing the ceiling he shouted: "GOD, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes!!!!!" The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by. " I'm waiting God, if you're real knock me off this platform!!!!" Again after 4 minutes, the professor taunted God saying, "Here I am, God!!! I'm still waiting!!!" His count down got down to the last couple of minutes when a SEAL, just released from the Navy after serving in Afghanistan and Iraq and newly registered in the class, walked up to the Professor. The SEAL hit him fullforce in the face, and sent the Professor tumbling from his lofty platform. The Professor was out cold!! The students were stunned and shocked. They began to babble in confusion. The SEAL nonchalantly took his seat in the front row and sat silent. The class looked at him and fellsilent.....waiting. Eventually, the professor came to and was noticeably shaken. He looked at the SEAL in the front row. When the professor regained his senses and could speak he asked: "What the hell is the matter with you?! Why did you do that!?" "God was really busy protecting America's soldiers, who are protecting your right to say stupid shit and act like an asshole!!! So he sent me!!" All I can say... is Amen. Thank you to all the Soldiers out there an over there. I wish I was there with you and I pray for your safety an that Gaurdian Angels be with you. God bless you all. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
8:03 pm	Miracle on 34th street! Reality vs Fantasy! Miracle on 34th Street This movie is amazing. I don’t really know what this writing is going to be about but lets roll with it. Grammar doesn’t matter, nor spelling. Also I’m a little sleep deprived so look for the humor. So here we go. Story starts off by Mrs. Walker finding out her Santa Clause is drunk. Problem right? I think so… So anyways she finds this replacement. Some random dude in the crowd that 1st addressed the problem. So of course he does a good job because he has his own padding provided and has his own set of whiskers (beard much like my own). At the end of the parade he somehow gets a job. Mr. Galey is just the man. He lives across the hall and has a crush on Mrs. Walker. He wants to meet her very bad and eventually confesses to Mrs. Walker that he used her daughter as a gateway to meet her. Ehh kinda nifty idea if you ask me. After their first introduction Galey affirms his attachment to Mrs. Walker. Now he’s got to find a way to make her change so that she can live in a more realistic world defined by fantasy. Ya see, Mrs. Walker doesn’t believe in anything fantasy. No fairy tales or stories. And so she assumes to be honest with Susan. Telling Susan that theirs not Santa Clause or fairy tales because they aren’t true. Mr. Galey doesn’t agree with Mrs. Walkers way of parenting. The first day of real work comes around and the store asks Mr. Kringle to “push” toys that kids don’t even really want. He’s appalled and just disregards the request. While kids are sitting on his lap, he promises them toys that the store Macy’s doesn’t even carry. He defies the culture that we live in today and shows a true Rebel spirit of good nature. People are happy an joyful w/ him because he’s a G. Cept for his boss of course who over hears him doing this…. One thing leads to another and it turns out to be a great idea. The whole problem of this story is the mental doctor in the movie dislikes Kris because he’s a fraud and Kris knows it. So one thing leads to another and Kris gets locked up in a mental institute. Then the only way for him to get out is to prove he really is Santa Clause. In court, Mr. Galey presents evidence to try and prove that Santa Clause is truly indeed Mr. Kringle. The coolest part is when he asks the prosecutors son to take the stand so that he can ask the child a few questions. He asks the kid why he believes in Santa Clause and the kid says because his dad (the prosecutor) says he exists. What a move. I really don’t wanna write the rest of the story. But I’ll tell ya how it ends. The Post office delivers the letters to the court house and dumps the letters all over the judges desk. Therefor showing that the government recognizes Santa Clause truly does exist. Thus reiterates my first statement that Galey is a PIMP. He proved to the world that Santa Clause exists. How often can we prove the unexplainable? How many times are we willing to give up everything to show that we truly believe in something? (Example: Mr. Galey lost his job for taking the case) How many times do we attack fantasy from reality? Is there a difference between Jesus and Santa Clause? Just some things to think about. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 18th, 2005
11:58 pm	Good ol good ol Well guys, just thought I'd update. Its been so long since I've done this. But anyways, life has been goin pretty good. Gotten in a few fights w/ some of the ladies in my life because i honestly dont understand them. Some of them date complete deuch bags and it when they get treated badly they wonder why, or say "why me".... So yea, some women need some reality checks but I'm not out to blame. If you read this, I'm prolly NOT talking about you, only a select few. Just know no matter who you are, I'm there for you. Thick or thin. Got resigned to Lael so I will be going back there this summer to spread Gods love and joy. But this is only a beginning. Theres so much more I plan/ hope to be doing. Lets just hope this is a gateway. Few more days left of school. Tomarrow I finish Psychology. YAY! =D Then I will only have 3 classes next week. Missing my brother I have to admitt. But God has really increased my faith since he's left. I really appreciate what our troops over seas are doing. We are truly blessed to have angels out there. Each servicemen is an angel. I met a guy who came into Circuit City today and i almost cried talkin to him. He's a Tank Engineer in souther Tikrit (SP). Best of luck for him. Please keep him in your prayers along w/ all the srvice men over there. Specially my brother. Thanks. I hope you all are having a good day when you read this. To allm y friends: I love you guys lots. I am blessed by all my friends in my life and I thank God every day. Dan your the man. Nicole, you gotta say yes sooner or later. Rest of you and theres so many, I just wanna say i love yo uguys. Well all I'm gonna get back to HW. So I'll ttyl. Peace out. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 14th, 2005
10:13 pm	Humorous Speech Something I had to write for a class: Just htought I'd post. Though this speech might be a little corny and may not rhyme, I ask that you just give it a little time. Getting up knowing you bombed the first and the second. A re bound is something to be reckoned. I was told “Try your best and give it your effort. All I can ask on such a mighty task”. Although my last speech was a little boring, atleast no one was snoring. Anything in this speech might or might not make sense, so Just sit there and smile like I’m a prince. Good comments at the end would be o so nice. So Mrs. Valentini will grade me not once, but Twice. 2 A’s oh that’d be mighty, for having a speech that is nice and tidy. (Now to the Topic on hand, and no its not Peter Pan.) They say school is cool but what do they know. A lot of people would rather talk on telephones. Its so different from when we started. Lets take a look an see where we parted. Kindergarten oh the days. Recess was the time to play. Arts and crafts all day, and you didn’t even have to pay! A hot teacher who would say, “Geoff, how are you doing today?” Smile on my face little child I was, running along without a clue, oh the trouble I got with super glue. Who would of thought that Jon’s pants would stick. O well they blamed Nick. 1st grade my backpack and lunch box so shiny. First full day without whining. I knew it would be long and so much fun. Spending time with the boys for the whole day, what could be better? Except to write those little letters. Pen pals we had over seas. What an accomplishment for not knowing my abc’s. 2nd and 3rd grade were hard times. The teachers were great but school was not. Hanging with friends was all the days seemed. Goin over to friends house on the weekends just to jump on there trampoline. I’m sure I learned a lot but not remembering what. I just remember owls we made out of nuts. 4th and 5th now those were the days. The trouble Ben and I made. Driving to school swearing on the bus. Getting written up caused quite a fuss. The older kids thought they could push us around, but I’m no clown. Class President one year the responsibility to represent. Total pay wasn’t even a cent. Teacher would send us to the board and tell us to underline nouns. “Just do your best” she’d say while we all fret bout failing the test on that dark day. Looking back, what has changed? We are all still scared, on exam day. Middle school was quite a change. Lockers to keep our things in day after day. Talking with Jessica and Marry and Sue, the boys would all holler, What are you going to do? Learning wasn’t on the mind no not at that time. Different things were though and new friends to meet. To enter high school on my own two feet. This is the time when you learn things that aren’t in a book. Like life lessons, in how to cook. All the special classes were mighty fine. 7 in all really took up the time. Hang in there I’m almost finished. Hurrying to get done in my time limits. High school seems like a distant past. Although it was the year before last. Man time flies fast. The boys would all gather and run laps, getting in shape for the chance at a date. Algebra, Science, Social studies and English were so hard. Regretting everything on, that stupid report card. Although I was told I was bright that’s not much to say. For things that came my hamful way. My first F in Trig now that was sad, Gosh were my parents mad. So I started trying to keep my mind from leaving. Thank God I didn’t take, basket weaving. Got accepted into National Honors Society. Seemed more like a cult than a priority. Extra events and school work too, teachers didn’t mind bending the rules. A paper here, a paper there. The workload took hours in a chair. Knowledge is power so they’d say. I guess I learned that in my own way. Now we are to talk about College specifically this class. Even if it does fry my _SS. Waking up early is such a task, running in the halls to get to class. Passing and pushing hopping and weaving your way, you know exactly what Mrs. Valentini is to say. “Should of budged your time more like an adult, its not my fault. Shut the door you are late, but don’t be sad cause its not a date. So another tardy how bad can that be, I take my seat an say “Whad up to thee” Praying that she doesn’t call on me, I slump in my chair an wish I had a cup of tea. College is different yes indeed. Although an A is all I really need. I don’t have that great of connectors though and my outline may not be as fine. I just hope Mrs. Valentini doesn’t pick away too much at mine. (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 24th, 2005
11:03 pm	New Poem... Those whove been shot down by girls, here ya go. (Revamping being done but heres the rough draft.) The Missing Piece of my Heart There I was sitting and waiting Wondering what she was thinking Is this right or is this wrong Am I a fool or did I just not wait too long I guess we won’t know until she speaks Broken hearted my soul weeps I know I am wrong and the time is not right So I feel bad with no delight How could I mess this up an tell her I love her Only to scare her away, perhaps forever If only she knew what she meant to me Would she run or would we be It takes lots of courage to tell her, this I know However all I want to do is go I feel so lost and also alone All I do is find myself staring at the phone My heart is missing a piece, feels broken an shattered A glimpse of the future is that mattered With her in my life would make me happy as can be But she just wants to feel young and free With her gone alone I will stand. Wallowing alone, as a Man The missing piece of my heart that she could be; One day I hope she’ll know, just how much, she meant to me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 6th, 2005
11:00 pm	Missouri Trip Well all I went on a trip to Missouri. Spent 4 hours writing in a word document so here it is cut an pasted. This is pre-edited. Ashley and Dijil are gonna edit it for me. But here's the original. To all that went, thank you for a week of my life I will never forget. God Truly is amazing. To Missouri and Back Again So many things to say, just in what order. I guess I’ll start from the top and see where that takes me. A few months ago my friend Kris Edler invited me to depart on a journey that he said would change my life. Not knowing what I was getting into, I gave my word that I would go. Gladly I did. On December 26th I left from Davison Michigan to go to some conferences put on by the International House of Prayer (IHOP). It was a long ride down. I was a little nervous going because I didn’t know anyone besides Kris and my friend Bryan whom I worked with at Lael over the last summer. However on this trip, I came back with more friends than I left with. Entering into Kansas City we went straight to the house where we were going to spend the week at when we weren’t at the conferences. It was amazing to see how many people we could fit into the little house. Down in IHOP the interns share houses about 4-6 people. Some of the members go to the prayer room and classes during the day and the others during the night watch. So there is always someone at the house trying to catch some sleep in between prayer sessions. With the offer given for our group to stay with them however, sleep would not happen. As we got settled in we were in for a big surprise. There were going to be more people coming to stay with us during the week. We all were excited and a little worried due to the confines of space. However we knew we’d manage. All through the night more people came in. We had a total of around 30 people staying in a house that was made for about 5 people comfortably to live in. People were in every room, on the floor, couches, futons, just anywhere and everywhere. I think I even saw 2 guys sleeping in the hall way at one point in time. Non the less we were excited to meet the new people. Upon arrival, Kris was very upbeat and motivated to go to the prayer room. Even after driving 13 hours…. He asked if anyone else wanted to go. A guy named Keith who had previously done an internship said he did and I wanted to as well. So the three of us set off to the Prayer room. When I got into the prayer room I didn’t know what to expect. As I came in music was playing, people were singing and dancing, and other activities were going on. I simply took a seat and decided to observe everything. I was a little too tired to be jumping around singing praise after a 13 hour car ride. So I sat in there and soaked up what I could. We entered the prayer room around 11:30 p.m. before the night watch members came in. In IHOP there has been 24 hours a day, 7 days a week prayer/worship for 5 years. It is truly an amazing sight. Around 2- 2:30 a.m. after hours of sitting there watching everything and saying prayers, the worship leader did a call of prayer for the sick. Whoever was sick could raise their hands and anyone who felt led to could go over and pray for a sick person. I looked around the room and I sighted a man behind me who had his hand raised. I walked over to him and 2 other guys I had never met joined me. We gathered around him and asked him what was wrong. His nose was running and his sinus’s were acting up. He also was having a hard time getting full breaths of air into his lungs. When he breathed you could hear the congestion in his head and a raspy sound (or shortness of breath) from his chest. His name was Jesse and he seemed to be in his late 30’s early 40’s. Anyways, the three of us laid our hands on him and began to prayer. The guy to my left began praying for him, then I said a prayer and the third guy prayed for him as well (in tongues). As we prayed, I tried to focus my heart to make the prayer as genuine as possible. Praying for a stranger isn’t really the easiest thing to do. However while we were praying, I could hear changes coming from Jesse. His airways began to open up, his nose stopped running and he was taking deep breaths of air. When the last guy finished praying, we all looked at Jesse. He opened his eyes and took deep breaths. I sat there amazed. While we were praying for him, he was healed. The power of prayer broke through in him and he was fine. I simply sat down an looked at him, giggling, probably because I was afraid. I remember looking at the guy that prayed in tongues a little funny and I asked him if he was speaking in tongues. He acknowledged that he was and asked me if I spoke in tongues or wanted to. I took that as my queue to exit. I told him no thanks and went back to my original seat. I started listening to the music again and started praying, thanking God for what he just did. I had witnessed my first miracle first hand. There was no way Jesse could of faked it and I knew that. All my life I have been searching for proof that God exists. Just throwing my faith out there until he decides to reveal himself. On this trip, he chose his time to reveal himself to me. I finally understood what it meant to put your life in Gods hands. So long, people have told me that once you give yourself entirely and whole heartedly to God, your life will be better. I now understand what this means. Our God truly is an awesome God. When we got back to the house we were staying in, I wanted to tell everyone of the miracle I just saw. However I found out that it would be a challenge just to reach my bed (or space on the floor) without stepping on anyone. I figured it’d have to wait till morning to share the good news. Morning came and as you can imagine everyone was up bright an early at good ol 7 o’clock. As everyone began to wake up in the house, I realized how hard it was to sleep with 30 other people moving around. So I got up after about 3 hours of sleep and decided to start my day. We all piled into the vans and cars and set off for the conference at a big arena in downtown Kansas City. When we got there we went to the registration and I looked around thinking the lines weren’t that bad. Then I finally woke up an realized I was in the outermost room. They opened the doors and people flooded in in a long line. After about 45 minutes in line just to register we went to the arena to get our seats. We ended up in the floor area right in the middle of everything. Not bad seats at all. Tired, I sat in my chair as the conference began. If you want to know what true worship is, or what I like to call repeated worship, go to a One thing conference. If you know me you know that I like to praise Jesus and worship God. I really do. However I don’t like to sing very long. At these conferences they tend to play the same thing over, and over, and over again. I have to admit I was really bored after the first 30 minutes of singing the exact same song. Later I would find out that no it wasn’t a broken record, but this is how they engraved music into your head. The days were broke up into 3 sessions. Morning, afternoon, and nightly sessions. Each session is 3 hours long. Generally the first hour and a half to two hours are praise and worship. The last hour is the message. During the week I would be tried, however I endured through it. I really looked forward for the message. During the week, there were 3 primary messages focused on. 1. Prayer, Worship, and Intercession 2. End-Times 3. Abortion. I’ll try and sum up the week by talking about the three messages separately. (Through the week they went back an forth…) Prayer, Worship and Intercession Through the week they stressed heavily on intimacy with God. In order to accomplish this you must know how to communicate with God. They made some really good points about prayer, fasting and intercession. In order to love anyone, you must love God. By loving God, you allow the holy spirit to work in you as well as to work through you. This was a really hard concept for me. I always figured I could love anyone whenever I truly felt that way. Realizing how wrong I was, I now put my life in Gods hands and seem to feel more at peace with myself. Trusting God will keep you safe no matter what. An analogy that a man by the name Mike Bickle uses sums it up the best. If you and God were on a branch and that tree was cut down, the tree may fall but the branch would still be there. “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord,… plans to give you hope and a future… You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” (Jeremiah 29:11,13) End-Times Now I have to be honest with you. Whenever I heard about the end-times I really cringed up in fear. This conference helped me sort my thoughts that I’ve had however and has changed my views on the end- times. I now realize that it is not something to be afraid of, but something to look forward to. At the conference they talked about the different signs that are shown biblical of the end times. I went to a seminar that was taught by a guy named Matt Candler. He brought up the point that no one knows when the end of the earth is coming. "No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the son, but only the Father." (Mathew 24:36) Its interesting how everyone wants to know when the end of the earth is coming yet no one lives as if they think it is tomorrow. At this conference they expressed their view that my Generation would be the Generation the lord returns to the earth. By biblical evidence there is a lot of facts to support this. However I think I will remain that it could happen any day at any time. Its not time to be pessimistic or optimistic, but realistic. You can find things about the end-times all through the bible. However specific’s I’d recommend are the books of Revelation, Joel and Luke 21, Mathew 24. Abortion This is a hard topic for me to talk about. Anything said is a personal view that does not reflect the church or affiliation other than my own personal beliefs: Later in the week, we were visited at the conferences by a guy named Lou Engel. Lou is a leading Christian activist in ending abortion. He organized a while back for a group to pray and fast for 31 days in front of the House of Congress with tape over their mouths. This was to signify the 31 years that abortion has gone on and caused a lost voice. Many things that he said hit me pretty hard. One thing he made clear was their was not enough of a public outcry to end abortion. Over the past few years, Roe from the famous case Roe v Wade which allowed abortion to be legal, has converted to Christianity. After doing so, she has become an activist and will appear before the supreme court on January 18th to overturn her own verdict. That’s quite a statement. I believe its time for Christians to make a stand. From the 43.5 million babies that have not lived a life due to abortion in the past 31 years, we are missing a generation. I’d like to see a change. Now I’d like to say its as simple as making abortion illegal and that’d be the end of it. However I understand that there are many variables that I am overlooking. Given this is a controversial subject I am not going to try and change your mind here and now. I am just stating my opinion that I feel abortion is wrong. Throughout the week there were many experiences that amazed me. I have never felt so close to God after finally giving my life to him and truly meaning it. God was moving in a lot of peoples lives their. When the conference first began, IHOP needed $300,000 to put on the conference. They received $100,000 from sponsors but still came up $200,000 short. Since this was a free conference they put their faith in God. On Wednesday night they did an offering where they received $80,000. This was pretty good coming from 10,000 young adults from all over the country. However it was not enough. They did a 2nd offering on Thursday to try and help with the debt of the conference. This time an astonishing miracle happened. They ended up raising $120,000 to pay off for the rest of the conference. Another miracle performed by God. While the offering was going on, I witnessed true Christians at their best. People gave from their hearts and more. The speaker was going over the true meaning of an offering and told about how he once viewed someone give their coat and shoes as an offering. I could only imagine what would happen next. Two girls from across the arena walked down in front of everyone and took off their shoes and placed them before the stage. They then dropped their jackets and returned to their seats. The next thing I knew, people from all over began going down in front of the stage and dropped off their coats or sweatshirts that they were wearing. Others took off their shoes. Ushers came forth and began putting the clothes in big trash bags. I would say about 30 bags were filled with clothing items. It was an amazing site. To see people taking clothes off their own back and to give it away so freely. It really took my breath away. A glimpse of the love and compassion that Jesus had for us was shown to me on that night. That is something I will never forget. The more I think about it the more I realize how much I have to change. What does it mean to truly give your life to God? How long do you pray and just feel like no one is listening? Why are we here on this earth? These are all questions that many of us face each day. In 1 week, I got a head start on the answers to these questions. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.” (Deu 6:5) Next year I plan on returning to these conferences, not as a follower but a leader. I will no longer walk in my faith towards Jesus. No, I will be RUNNING. I will do as the Lord commands and lead a life that follows him. That is my prayer and for the record may I say, God help me. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
1:45 am	Day of Days.... Well this has definitely been a day to remember. I wish the outcome would of been different, however I re-learned the lesson to never take for-granted the friends that you have. For the past 2 weeks, my friend Dan has been telling me that he wants to go on a road trip. I have also wanted to go on a road trip for a while... Who hasn't? So anyways, he has been telling me that he has been wanting to go down to Indiana to see a girl that he met on our mission trip last year. Her name is Leah. So for the past two weeks we have been trying to gather the finances for this trip. He has been telling me how much he wants to see her and just get on the road. And I can definitely understand that. Today Dan messaged me with saddened news that we wouldn't be able to go. I wasn't too saddened by this but I was a little bummed. Then he told me why he felt so bad. What he was actually planning on doing was taking me for a christmas present of my own. He wanted to take me down to Missouri for a few days where I could hang out with my friend Ashley. Ashley and I met 2 years ago in Wyoming on a mission trip. Since then we have remained close friends and have longed to see each other again. However this would not be the time. So today I broke the news to her that we wouldn't be going and she was a little upset. She and Dan have been working together on this for a while and it just didn't work out. But I promised her that I will try my best to see her soon and now I am very motivated to do so. I am so blessed to have friends like Dan and Ashley. He took a lot of time out of his life to give me a present I would never forget. He is the true definition of a friend. Then there is Ashley. My southern Belle. She is a remarkable young lady. She is very pretty and extremely talented. But the best thing about her is she is loving and caring. She went through a lot trying to prepare for my arrival and I appreciate it much. Many times have I thought about moving to Missouri just to be by her. Who knows, maybe that is what my future holds. But one thing is for sure, I will see her again and it will be soon... To have friends like this.. is just amazing. Thank you all for reading this and thanks for being my friend. I don't know what I would do without you all. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
5:22 pm	2 verses that stick out. Lamentations 4:9 - Those slain by the sword are better off than those slain by hunger, who waste away, pierced [with pain] because the fields lack produce. Hebrews 13:6 - Therefore, we may boldly say: The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 7th, 2004
12:51 am	Another night missing... Well I am finally done babysitting. It was pretty cool to babysit for 3 days. I realized I want kids, but I am not ready for them quite yet. Well tonight I went for a walk under the beautiful sky covered in stars. I once again felt that emptiness of not having someone there by my side. I guess I am like everyone else. Someone searching for there partner to be with them in the intimate moments in life. One of these days I will look up at the same sky and feel the comfort of being with someone right by my side. So ya if you know a girl thats reaching for the stars alone, have her give me a call :) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 24th, 2004
10:43 pm	Just another day.... So whenever I get bored, I tend to look at peoples away msg's on my buddy list on aim. This girl I had a thing for had posted: "(Never give up on something you can't go one day without thinking about.)" For some reason I would have to disagree w/ this statement. What do you think? Well tomarrow I leave for Pittsburgh on another business trip. I get to observe a big meeting with 84 Lumber and Kubinec strapping solutions. It will be really cool because if all goes well, 84 Lumber will be buying a whole bunch of stuff. So that would be pretty sweet. Other day on the radio, I heard a song Beautiful One. I'm trying to DL it but it wont DL :( Hopefully it will be by the time I get back from Pittsburgh. Well since I'm a loser, I got nothin else to say. So I'm gonna bounce. Peace out all and Forever Forward. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
12:10 am	Update Theres some things out there that you just cant help but ponder. What is life? Am I living the right life that I'm supposed to be living? Am I doing the things I should? Theres so many questions out there that we ask ourselves. I think Sarah Evans said it best when she said "I found all I waited for, and I could not ask for more." Theres been high points in life, and theres been lows. Its those times that are high when you feel like you are on top of the world. Whether its an encounter with a friend, or just a feeling that God is with you can make your day. How do you get to the Highs and avoid the lows? Thats the question that we all ask ourselves and thats the answer that we are always looking for. When I find myself at an alltime high it is when I am with someone I trust fully and dont have to worry about my faults. Whether its friends or even God. Especially God. The time where I felt most at ease was when I was on top of a mountain in Colorado. I spent a few hours climbing and when I got to the top I was able to just stare out into the beauty of nature. There is nothing like it. Just breathing in the fresh air and staring out into all of Gods creations. Sometimes we all need to step back and just realize all of the blessings that we have. Sometimes watching birds soar in the air living life free and without worries just brings a smile to my face. Maybe I'm just weird. I like a lot of simple things in my life. I dont really like a bunch of fancy things. The thing I like to do most is talk with friends. No matter where they are, spending time with friends can make the world. Alot of people ask me why I dont have a girlfriend. Well the answer to that is I dont think I know what I'm looking for. I tend to look at things so deeply that I'm just looking for that person where I have the "Special bond" or instant heart change. All that sissy stuff that guys make fun of there friends when they say they feel a certain way about a girl. Thats what I'm lookin for. A lot of people say well what satisfies you? Thats an easy one. Just being w/ someone that cares about me and just spending time w/ those that matter to me. Whether its friends just hangin out, goin to the movies or a girl and I just cuddling watching a movie or the stars. Simple things. Tonight I went out on my deck to look at the stars and talk to God. The funny part was when I looked up, I didn't see any stars. The clouds were out in full tonight to stop the lights shining down on me. We all are looking for certain things in life but sometimes a cloud gets in the way. No matter what you do or say though, there will always be tomarrow a different day, a different time for the stars to shine. When your day is cloudy, look for tomarrow. Clear skies and a sunny day can make all the difference. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
12:30 pm	Use your Imagination people... My PokEmon bRinGs alL the Nerds to the YaRd and there like, do ya wanna trade cards? DanG RigHt letS tRadE some cards, I'll trade you but not my Charizard!! <3 not hate. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
12:14 am	The Poem to the ladies... O I thought you were the one for me Who gave me a new reason to breathe But when you turned your back I do not know If I should stay or should I go The times we spent seem like a waste Now that I cannot see your face I miss you so dearly, I miss you so much You have vanished without a trace and left me deserted in this forsaken place My way of life has changed without your touch Being with you brought me to tears, knowing I’m with you, I had no fears I succumbed to your warmth and comfort, pleasures and desires Giving you all that I had with my heart But you turned your back and now we are apart I wished so many things for you and I Like a walk, under the dark sky Holding hands and cuddling, sharing our love Knowing today, that day will never come Though the times we spent were fun while it lasted I’ll think about you all the time. I see you everyday high above. That glistening light pouring into my heart. You're a star, you'll always shine. Sweet sweet, love of mine. (Comment on this)